March is always a month for me to do some interspection. I was born in March, so everytime I reach and pass my birthday I sit and look back on my life.
This year I turned 49, for many this time in their lives is a time to look back on their accomplishments and look forward to the sunset of their lives, I am not at this point. I have just recently graduated from college and I am looking towards my future in the same shoes as a twenty something getting out of college.
I am suffering from the same anxieties, what will I do now, and what does the future hold? Most people of my age measure success by all their material gains and if I were to measure my life by those successes I am a dismal failure. I do not have a hefty retirement, I do not own more property than what I came into this world with, and I can not leave my children anything but the clothes on my back.
Funny thing is I do not feel like a dismal failure, I am proud of my life and my accomplishments. I work nine months out of the year and vacation for three. I have put my kids through college and myself as well without bancrupting myself or mortaging my kids future. I been married to the same guy for 28 years, and I haven't killed him yet, and he holds no ill feelings for me either. I draw and paint when I want to, write crazy blogs no one reads, but at least I do it.
All in all a good life. So as I finish my forties and get ready to embark into my 50's I am doing an open invitation to all my friends and family, for my 50th birthday I do not want an over the hill party, I want a high school prom, because just like prom night, that night will be the end of one era and the beginning of a whole new one, ripe with possibilities and good food, music and drink.
Let's celebrate life like teenagers would, why???? Because we can.
No comments:
Post a Comment